Sun, 26 March 2023
Normal weight up till 11 when my Dad died.
In HS I was 4'9" and 250.
My mom put me on every diet available and none worked.
1st time in OA I lost over 100 Lbs but it brought up issues I was unwilling to deal with. OA works if you work it. I didn't.
Came back with a clearer understanding my step one.
I lived with the paradox of the my weight saying 'Notice me' and also wanting to be invisible.
My 2nd time in ended with one bite of See's candy.
I came back a 3rd time with a commitment not to leave, no matter what.
Today I am comfortable in my body, I am healthy and happy.
I know OA saved my life, gave me self-esteem. I exercise regularly, talk with my sponsor and more.
My food plan varies based on an honest evaluation of my relationship with particular foods at particular times.
Sun, 19 March 2023
I have had all the promises come true and can still be a jerk.
I came into program 40 years ago.
Living in Woodland hills drove to LA to meeting. the obsession hit and I bought food on the way home but was to sick to eat it.
GOD = Gift of Desperation.
I came in angry at everybody and everything. Today I am a safe person.
Find someone you trust and can really talk to.
Happy joyous and free is feel safe and secure in yourself.
At the end of one successful diet I gained 17 lbs in one week.
I still report my food in every day. It is what works for me.
Sun, 12 March 2023
Never a time when food wasn't the most important thing to me.
First OA Meeting when I was 12.
At 23 I was my top weight 423 but because I was young the physical damage was not that bad yet.
I broke toilets, lived through surgical complications and more all because of my weight without any change.
My body was killing me and I couldn't do anything. It was the only body I knew
When I fanallly return to OA that meeting was about death and I felt at home.
For the first year I sponsored myself rigorously and had some results until I hit my own plateau several times.
Regardless of where I was food wise I never left the program.
I am two different people. My life in the food and my life in recovery.
Today I have a life where I am trusted, I experience love in both directions and I have self esteem.
Sun, 5 March 2023
100 Pounder multiple times.
I lost the weight but i was still me and my best friend was food.
I am a survivor of abuse as a child. As an adult I addressed my part and moving from victim to survivor.
I was always my own worst critic and I was brutal.
When I found my first OA Meeting I was broken and hopeless. They welcomed me.
Current weight loss is about 155 lbs.
Service has saved my life. I recommend it.
I continue to connect the dots from my past to adjust my future.
My disease wants me dead. Today I want to live.