Sun, 26 March 2023
Normal weight up till 11 when my Dad died.
In HS I was 4'9" and 250.
My mom put me on every diet available and none worked.
1st time in OA I lost over 100 Lbs but it brought up issues I was unwilling to deal with. OA works if you work it. I didn't.
Came back with a clearer understanding my step one.
I lived with the paradox of the my weight saying 'Notice me' and also wanting to be invisible.
My 2nd time in ended with one bite of See's candy.
I came back a 3rd time with a commitment not to leave, no matter what.
Today I am comfortable in my body, I am healthy and happy.
I know OA saved my life, gave me self-esteem. I exercise regularly, talk with my sponsor and more.
My food plan varies based on an honest evaluation of my relationship with particular foods at particular times.