Sun, 9 May 2021
Graduated HS @ 270 with 50" waist. It frightened me.
Fear ruled me. I fixed/avoided with food.
I was willing to go to ANY lengths. Alone - Every diet work for a short time... Once.
46 days in OA led to my worst binge ever. It was a turning point.
I discovered a Higher Power of "MY" understanding.
Abstinence gave me lots of extra time to do my program.
Sun, 2 May 2021
Food was my crutch when I was 12.
Even pudgy brought about massive shame.
God was for uneducated, weak- willed people.
I attended meetings without participating until somebody actually talked to me.
Not a program of feeling, thinking, wanting... It is a program of action !
Sun, 25 April 2021
lost 140 lbs first time in OA.
After a major relapse I have 17 years today.
I am a skid row compulsive over eater.
I learned to show up, sit in the front, raise my hand, be of service and tell the truth.
The Doctors Opinion nails it for me.
My program is the infrastructure for my life.
I now have someone who I love and loves me. I never thought it could happen for me.
Sun, 18 April 2021
Abstinent since 9/8/2003
My addictions does not get triggered if I avoid foods I am allergic to.
I knew the foods I was allergic to but kept buying and eating them into oblivion. and wake up with another failed commitment to do it differently.
A friend from another 12 step program mentioned OA. I went but did not work the OA program.
I was afraid to go shopping at first.
I did all the steps in order out of the big book with a sponsor. It worked.
Today I am dependent on my Higher Power ... in a healthy way,
Sun, 11 April 2021
Growing up I looked good on the outside. But.....
Everything I did I did compulsively, Food/ Sugar was the major negative one.
I learned to tap dance at as a child and used it physically and emotionally for years.
I created a seemingly cool life on the outside as a designer in Europe until I can back to US. Not cool = Not OK
Women were meeting is a restaurant I worked at were having an OA meeting. Ding Ding.Ding.
I picked my sponsor because she judged like I did.
I have maintained a healthy body weight for 34 years always participating in OA, keeping commitments, sponsoring and doing the steps many times.
Stopping my compulsive behaviors is the BEGINNING of my recovery.
Sun, 4 April 2021
I always saw myself as a fat child, but in retrospect is was not always true.
I had heard about stopping hard drugs and it sounded like my trying to stop eating chocolate. Long before I got into OA.
2 weeks into OA I discovered Fear and Resentment were the underlying issue for my compulsive eating and cravings.
Growing up I never learned how to identify and talk about my emotions in realm time.
This is my current work. I can get a resentment when things are not clear and/or consistent and I can eat over it. The work never ends. Today I write about it rather than eat over it. Yay OA
Sun, 28 March 2021
Lonely kids. I knew all the 'Lonely' songs.
Big in elementary school.
Got sober in '75.
Introduced to OA in '76. started on to 18 years of abstinence. Was involved, did service. did not stick.
Basic instincts went awry.
PAGGLES 7 deadly sins On me to make adjustments with God's help
12 steps in 10 words.
2,3 Look up
Sun, 21 March 2021
9 of 10 Children. Family dinners were always an adventure.
If I excelled in sports I could get Dad's attention. Led to perfectionism and people pleasing and led me to my first 12 steep program.
Sugar got me so high my face would tingle.
Anytime I step on a scale I feel bad. So i don't step on a scale.
Once I got to OA I never left. I didn't do the program well but I never left.
I lost my first sponsor - then fake sugar led to weight gain, changing meetings, thinking a nutritionist would be better than getting a new sponsor.
Everything changed when I really started 'Doing the Work'.
This past year has changed everything in my life for the better.
I no longer manage people except as required at work.
Sun, 14 March 2021
Recovery can bring back memories of how bad it was. A Fat American in France
I ate violently, destructively and disturbingly.
At one point I did a cost-benefit analysis of my addiction...didn't help.
My fancy education made no difference.
Once in the program I became Miss OA. My physicality came back.
'I got this' led to an 80 lb weight gain
I finally did get this Nov 3 2008.
Today I have a daily ritual morning and evening which includes reading, writing, step work and A E I O U Y
I really do have a life beyond my wildest dreams by doing a few things every day.
Sun, 7 March 2021
Grew up thinking I was unwanted as 5th of 5.
Within 3 days of joining the program there was a month long orientation workshop which gave me a deep understand on the program and what I could expect.
Unity between my program, my marriage, my higher power and my life keep all the parts working.
Sun, 28 February 2021
I was a sensitive kid obsessed with my body image.
At 15 I got diet pills, then speed and was not actually overweight.
I restricted, was an exercise bulimic and tried it all.
I stopped eating sugar because I was a people pleaser. AND just kept coming back.
Today the program and my higher power have helped me all the challenges life has thrown at me and maintained my abstinence.
The promises have come true
Sun, 21 February 2021
In my youth I got a rush from stealing and an escape with the food.
Long term cycles of feast and famine(excersize, restriction tec.)
I was in OA for 8 years without a sponsor. 'Surprise' I had no recovery.
Today i have a daily ritual for my recovery which has led to my 2.5 years abstinent,
Sun, 14 February 2021
I was given sugar instead of a bottle.
Program worked when I laid down the food and picked up a pen.
Never, Never, Never give up.
my 4th step made me suicidal because I had no God.
Since I developed a belief and relationship with a Higher Power he has saved me regularly.
Sun, 7 February 2021
Sun, 31 January 2021
Lost 100 lbs and put it back before entering Law School.
Wore Tee shirts until I was 30 because I was afraid of bursting my buttons.
The beginning of my recovery was a spiritual experience that makes no sense, cannot be explained and has been with me 40 years.
Sun, 24 January 2021
Huge amount of food and huge amount of laxatives.
It took four months after a 3 week relapse to feel sane.
After a long time in the program I had to give up all my sponsees to work on myself.
I am on a spiritual journey. The food blocks me from this process.
Sun, 17 January 2021
All about Step one.
When I came to OA I thought everyone was abstinent, so I did to.
Last Xmas I 12 stepped 2 caregivers.
I will never have a normal relationship with food.
Sun, 10 January 2021
Weight kicked up at puberty
My first OA Meeting the church was locked. There was one other person and I knew I was home.
I lost 100 lbs in 9 months and was rocking in OA until Iost my sponsor and decided to sponsor myself.
160 later I found my way back to OA and was welcomed.
The OA community and service makes me know I am not alone.
Sun, 3 January 2021
Dieted from 7th grade to age 50. yo-yo-yo and the swings got bigger.
I had a plan for my college reunion to loose weight. I did not go to my reunion.
I had a friend who talked about OA. She lost weight while I gained.
Gave up sugar after my first OA Meeting.
God was the hardest part of OA for me. That is absolutely not the case for me today.