Sun, 24 September 2023
2 Periods of abstinence.
For me abstinence is binary, I am or i am not.
When I came back I was eating from the produce aisle and still gaining weight.
There was a shift when I changed from eating emotionally to eating nutritionally based on a food plan.
I have a Higher Power and I shorten it to God.
I still feel the pull. Today I call me sponsor instead of giving into it.
Half of my abstinence is an attitude,
Program always comes first.
Sun, 17 September 2023
Sober 32 years , Abstinent - 2 Food is a bigger deal and harder
I am now in a body and a mind that does not include dieting.
I just wanted the diet, I can do this! For a while
For me steps 6 and 7 were the miracle steps. Transformed my relationship with me.
I imagined a abstinent life of suffering. I din't hear that, just imagined that.
I was not ready for so long, I prayed be ready and one day it happened. I stopped convincing myself of the path I imagined and started to accept reality which was not anywhere near as bad as my scenario.
Sun, 10 September 2023
I have maintained an over 300 lb weight loss for past 4 years.
in High school I had friends who were concerned. at 250 lbs.
As I moved up in weight I just gave any thought of approproiate eating. I knew I needed more that a diet.
I prayed to have the weight removed and it was still there in the morning.
Massive health problem gave me pause to think about it No More. I was sure I was going to die and surrendered to that which led me to surrender to believing i was a compulsive over eater which allowed me to allow OA into my life.
I hit a bottom which was the moment I stopped digging.
Once I got a sponsor and started working the steps, my recovery started.
Not only the weight loss but keeping it off is a miracle,'
My children no longer have to be my caregiver. I get the be the dad.
OA - Simple yes, Easy no
Sun, 3 September 2023
Came in over 350. Was told I needed surgery but not until I lost 70 lbs - I put on 20.
I got candy to keep my dad's alcohol secret and got paid with candy to rat him out.
I learned to pray, but for stuff.
I ended up married and pregnant an got permission to eat like I wanted.
I volunteered for everything all over the place to prove I was worthy.
There was a moment when I realize I was choosing between life OR chocolate cake.
i am no longer alone. I work with a sponsor and my doctor.