Sun, 27 February 2022
I was born prematurely. That was the last time I was underweight.
Growing up we showed love with food. I couldn't get enough love or food.
I did lots of diets, They all worked for a while and only once.
Every time I thought I was doing great it led to my doing poorly and then regaining my weight.
I finally surrendered into the program over a can of oysters.
At my highest weight I was using a cane. Any physical activity was a challenge.
I recently played Basketball. Different set of emotional flooded me than I was used to.
Sun, 20 February 2022
My life was finding a way to fill the void which could not even describe.
I fled from people who liked me because something had to be wrong with them.
My eating kicked in when I gave up smoking.
OA was not my first 12 step program. Any 12 step program started improving my life.
Having a structured program works for me. I want freedom of choice but that did not work.
Sun, 13 February 2022
Black was slimming ... I thought
The most important amends that I had to make, that took the longest, was to myself.
Abstinence did not suddenly give me social skills.
Relapse is part of my story. Acknowledging in allows me to help others who may be struggling and ashamed.
My goals ended up being limiting. God had way better plans for me.
I use tool every day.
Defiance is still one of my character defects.
Today my food plan and my lifestyle activities directly support my health.
Sun, 6 February 2022
Growing up alcohol was just liquid sugar.
I was stealing food in first grade.
As youngest of 11children I was in the 'who could loose weight' family competition in the third grade.
I failed at anorexia and bulimia.
Sugar was my 'drug' of choice.
By 22 I was over 300 lbs
Gained and lost over 100 lbs at least 6 times.
Nailed the program. Lost weight, spoke, was a super hero for a moment.
The message of OA is welcoming, supportive and available to all who want it. All excuses are accepted.