Sun, 26 June 2022
I was stealing and lying about food as a young kid.
Supplements, diets, all worked for a short time once.
Got the 15 questions of OA in the military. Did a treatment center, Spiritual retreat and got a sponsor. Ended up more sober than abstinent.
Left military, college on GI Bill - up over 300 lbs.
Got back into OA, 4 years of abstinence but minimal recovery. led to relapse.
Once I got back I got enrolled into Service at the Intergroup level and more but stilled bounced up and down.
Today I have a sponsor, do service, stick to my food plan and am close to my goal weight and just stay here.
Sun, 19 June 2022
Everything hopeful started tomorrow, Monday or 'on the first'
I was my own worst critic.
Compulsive overeating is a lonely pass-time.
I always wanted to be thin. I was not willing to do what I needed to do.
2008 I went back to OA through a convention. I surrendered with a prayer 'God, I can't do this alone'. I got a sponsor that weekend.
I got abstinent 4 days before Halloween.
If you are alive you will experience celebration, sorrow, love and loss. It is always easier abstinent.
Today I CAN hear the small voice that tells me 'Kara, you are OK.'
Sun, 12 June 2022
Came in at 16 but not a smooth trajectory.
Food was my solution to escape from my reality.
I would do anything to avoid my body being seen.
I was banned from the Soup Plantation.
I ended up growing up in these rooms which was very uncomfortable.
Today . Abstinence is my only shot at a big, great life.
I choose feelings over food. I have intimate, honest relationships with other people.
I can get through anything as long as I don't try to do it alone.
Sun, 5 June 2022
Needed a Dr.s note for my first go at Weight Watchers.
I started as a Catholic and learned how to pray . . . for me.
I didn't worship God, I worshipped food.
I became super woman - alone.
Finally a therapist got me to consider I was a compulsive over eater and got to OA. So I wanted to learn the food plan.
The moment I actually said I was willing to go to any length, I had a spiritual experience. and my journey to recovery finally began for real.