Sun, 26 November 2023
Came into OA through Al-Anon.
I grew up in a dysfunctional home and coped by being good and eating, supressing any emotions and pretending to be what they wanted.
I accepted a suggestion from my wife, went to an OA meeting and knew I had found my people.
I fell in line, got a sponsor worked the steps lost weight. Lost my sponsor, stopped working the steps and some weight came back on.
Today with a new sponsor I am working steps like a newcomer and my recovery is coming back.
I still wanted to be my own higher power or let other be that Power That has changed with my surrender to the OA Program.
Now I am turning everything I can over to my HP and my life is getting better.
The more honest I am with my steps the more I discover.
I am gaining acceptance of things that happened,things I have done and myself.
Sun, 19 November 2023
My core family emotion was rage. Learned to ask for NOTHING.
As an anorexic I was not connected to my hunger until I was way overdue for food and then I binged.
I entered recovery by removing all sharp knives and having my friends hide them from me.I was not well.
Today I still weigh and measure my food at home.
Every step has life lessons.
My food plan is redundant - That works well for me.
I have been with my food sponsor for 30 years. He knows me well.
My friends are in recovery.
I am in other 12 step programs. I have to be good in all 3 to call myself 'sober'
Sun, 12 November 2023
Topped out over 300 LBS Now I have 44 years abstinent.
I was overweight early and hated myself growing up
I was berated by my family. Went to first OA meeting at 17 in 1973.
I had lots of difficulties with the steps The grey sheet helped me loose weight. . . A lot of weight. but not for long.
I ate my way into the threat of diabetic blindness. All my reasons for avoiding OA were trashed my first meeting back.
I was full of resentments and did not want to be told what to do.
Eventually I began the inner work and got better results in my body but specially in my mind. There are always reasons to eat. Better reason to abstain.
Sun, 5 November 2023
My parents were both Holocaust survivors which brought food issues.
My parents in the food business which made it easy for me to catch this disease.
In 4th grade was prescribed Speed. as time went on I tried many prescription drugs as well as the pay and weigh.
Working at Knotts Berry Farm there were rides I was not allowed to ride.
I got a newcomer pack, read it, learned it and eventually figured i would be here for the long haul.
In OA with a sponsor I got the unconditional love I was desperately seeking from my family.
I continue to learn in this program.