Sun, 28 May 2023
2002 Came to OA hundred pounder. Knew about AA and felt sorry for those poor addicts.
My pitch is for those who are tortured by what they eat.
I was convinced I need a sponsor, needed to call him and I recived a new life. Got involved in service, met a girl and got married.
By 2017 I lost interest in recovery. my weight climbed, my enjoyment in my life plummeted.
Every plan I made feel through until I the only thing left was back to OA.
I thought if I lost weight fast I was getting better.
Today I make no food decision on my own. I am food neutral.
I am an atheist who prays a lot.
Sun, 21 May 2023
There are some gaps in the recording due to poor internet.
Even as a child the goal of being thin and eating as much as possible were at odds.
At 11 I went OA. They were nice but that was all I remember.
At 15 all I wanted them to do was' Stop Talking!'
I followed a diet and called it recovery.
In '94 I began my recovery, getting a sponsor and following directions he gave me.
I got amazing results loosing weight AND found the ability to spout OA wisdom like it was my own.
I got so good I began sponsoring myself because I was so good.
Finally got back with all my weight, followed new directions with a slight degree of humility developed and relationship with my higher power and began the road to real recovery.
Sun, 14 May 2023
My childhood was devoted to sweets.
A friend died of obesity when we were 41. Got me to a doctor who scared me healthy for a moment.
Found a new diet online called OA. Followed grey sheet, lost weight with no recovery. and paid the price.
Finally found my way back to OA and the Pizza Box meeting. They were extremely serious about their recovery AND had fun.
Today I have have a daily ritual including the tools of the program and tools I have learned from other abstinent members.
Today I do my best to do the right thing around food, relationships, driving - life.
My step zero is to always remember WHY I am in OA.
Isolation is my enemy. The fellowship helps me conquer that enemy.
Sun, 7 May 2023
Sugary and starchy foods are a problem for me.
I was a chronic dieter and nothing ever lasted.
At 5' 1" almost 300 lbs is a lot of mass. My thinnest got me hospitalized. Always Malnourished.
I came to O. A. seeking and external solution to an internal problem.
Self loathing is not the path to recovery.
I was inspired (Not my idea) to attend an OA Conference. I was struck abstinent at that weekend.
I am always moving toward or away from my Higher Power. Toward is better.
I cannot do this alone. I need all of you and all the tools.
My GPS is God's Powerful Spirit.
Sun, 30 April 2023
Came in 2007 at 519 lbs
I had a core belief ' I am not ok". If thing did not go the way I wanted it proved me right, kept me outside. I learned to accept that truth. My relationship with food verified it more.
My weight went up, down, up more, down, up more up to a high of 525.
The honest awareness and acceptance I could not do it by myself got me into O.A.
Step 1 was a grieving process for me.
When I want too know what I am supposed to do, I look at what I am resisting.
Any time I think I got away with something, it becomes a heavier weight than the food.