Sun, 22 January 2023
I was packing food. Loved being full.
Day after day - "I'll never do this again."
I married the first guy who asked and had 2 kids by 21.
I believed I was a victim . . .of my husband, of my disease of everything.
It was always a diet, Goal weight and immediately 'game on'
I got caught eating a spoiled sandwich for the first time I was outed for a particular behavior.
When I admitted I was a compulsive over-eater I had my own identity for the first time.
I embraced the concept of 'No Matter What' from the beginning.
I feel anxiety over any change in my food plan.
I avoided the God stuff in the beginning. then it changed.
Sun, 15 January 2023
When I ate I got things done.
I was choosing food over shelter.
A 300 lbs I felt small.
I went to OA, got embraced, hooked and started my recovery. I get an apartment and a job the first week.
The foundation of my recovery is honesty. That creates the space for God to come in.
My recovery is not a return but a discovery and becoming who I am.
I am in multiple 12 steps programs and I need to be. but OA is my home base.
I have been through a lot of emotional events and stayed abstinent.
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Sun, 8 January 2023
Thin to normal until late teens.
by 24 years old I added 3 kids and 125 pounds.
Tried to manage my weight myself with little results
Came to OA 2 years ago, Had 1 short slip after 6 months and now a back on track.
I have medical issue and medicine that affects my weight.
At one point I would try to make my husband responsible for what I ate.