Sun, 23 April 2023
Came back into program from a terrible relapse in 2010 Took until 2014 to get abstinence.
My mother put me on diets very young. No diet lasted very long.
I went from a small town catholic girls school to NYC nursing school. discovered I really like to party.
Married with two children I thought there would be a top to my weight gain. Did not find it.
Anxiety pills and vodka produced the expected result and ended up in the ER.
Finally I committed up in OA followed direction, did service, had friends and thought I was good and could do this without meetings. That did not work. and I got up to my highest weight.
In 2014 I started my real journey to recovery into a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun, 16 April 2023
I think I was a compulsive over-eater as kid. Thin kid with a belly. I got in trouble for bumming food.
I picked up drugs and that worked for me. I ended up putting down the spoon and picked up the fork.
I ended up using and eating up to over 300 Lbs.
I found out about OA, got a food plan and literature and did it on my own. But not very well.
Finally realized I needed a sponsor. got a real food plan and accountability. He helped me realized how many of my thoughts were insane. Helped me discover the phone was not my enemy.
Riding a stationary bike, I lost 100 lbs, gained 80, lost it again all while riding the bike hours a day. Discovered the quantity of appropriate food I was eating made a difference.
By the time I finished the steps I was eating extra bites with the obvious results.
For the past 20 years I call my sponsor, am accountable for my food, sponsor other men and hold the programs as sacred.
Sun, 9 April 2023
Spring bringing a sense or renewal parallels my experience in OA
Prior to OA I was a Seed, full of potential but eating and nothings happens, In OA I germinated and began to grow - spiritually. But not right away.
My highest was at least 562. so far over 300 lbs
Walking upstairs is a miracle given to me by my participation in OA.
There are "God shots" which give me appropriate times to share about program.
Things tend to work out better when I am present and that only happens when I am NOT in the food.
The problem is rarely what I think it is, It is more likely how I think about it.
Sun, 2 April 2023
I came into OA wondering why everyone was cheerful.
My eating habits were reflected in the birth weight of my children.
I picked a sponsor for their energy and joy, not the weight loss.
I don't know what ' A little bit' means. I am better off when have a solid food plan and don't have to think about it or make decisions.
I survived my son's wedding.
I work to avoid complacency.
I am maxed out with 2 sponsees, school and a family. It all brings me joy as long as I work my program.
I am look forward to what God has in store for me tomorrow.