Sun, 22 August 2021
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This day 42 years ago was my first OA Meeting.
Top weight over 400 lbs. Came into OA at 380.
I was an Atheist and completely unwilling to be converted.
By 16 years I was deep into relapse and terrified of being seen but went to a convention.
For the last 15 years I continue to work the steps and improve my spiritual life.
Sun, 15 August 2021
Growing up in an abusive home, in college and grad school my best friend was sugar/candy.
My life was one crisis after another. One is not enough including suicide attempts.
I went from 88 lbs to 223 and everything in between for 40 years.
I was having physical problems, labelled as obese and that got my attention, getting me into OA.
Started out only willing to call my sponsor daily. Eventually I was gifted with abstinence.
I have had the same body for 10 years and today I love it.
I get something new every time I go the the AA Big Book. How could Bill Wilson know how I felt about my hopelessness?
Sun, 1 August 2021
I did food plans like I did diets.
Today I do the program - the steps, writing, meetings, exercise, service, higher power.
Seeing others who have lost 100, 200 300 pounds and more inspired me and helped me believe it was possible for me.
I could still eat compulsively while on my food plan.