Feb 20, 2025 =8 years

I grew up in dysfunctional family like so many others. 

Food felt like an escape.

The voice of my disease told me I needed a smaller body. what ever it was.

I knew the squeaky tiles in my house so I could sneak to the fridge.

I became completely obsessed with food and my body.

I cried a LOT in the beginning. 

Now,  for me, it is OK to be vulnerable, I realize I am not the center of the universe. Living in the grey area is equivalent to being right sized.

My criticism of me can be as damaging as the food.

Today working my program includes sponsoring and being sponsored, being of service and living the principles in all my affairs

From Early childhood always full plates. Both parents were compulsive eaters. 

I learned how to sneak food without being heard or discovered.

I was the only kids in the point system program with my mom. I did not get it and hated it.

i went to college at about 300 lbs. I learned all about nutrition but it didn't help me.

My parents encouraged me to try OA. Much of my life was working but not my food.

I did my first meeting on Zoom and cried and still felt at home.

In the beginning is was all about the weight and I did not embrace all the work

The steps helped me to acknowledge I was perfectly imperfect.

The concept of a higher power did not come easily but it has come to me.

Even if I don't enjoy me feelings I allow them without turning to the food one day at a time.

Very active childhood. Family outdoor activities. 

I was driven to seek attention and approval. so I excelled.

It was a slow weight gain spanning 30 years, 2 kids 

Occasional diets led to a short term dip but adding more eventually.

I was led to the 15 questions and passed. I belonged.

There 5 OA Actions that worked for me.

Compulsive Overeater shares her journey of recovery.