Sun, 27 October 2024
I am not a 100 pounder so I would compare (I'm not that bad) in the beginning. I used food to anesthetize myself and it worked in my youth. I was known in my family as a sneak eater. Somewhere I knew it wasn't all about the food but I still thought it was about the food. I was a sneak eater even when I didn't have to. Holidays were a time when I didn't have to sneak. But I still did. Relationships were a trigger for weight gain. I was clear that God could not help me with my food. But he did. I spent a long time just dipping my toe in the program confidant that I already had it because of my other program. Finally getting a sponsor, listening to him, working the steps through the the lens of OA. Eventually things were happening that I could not do. Thus a higher power became present for me. The box In which I placed my HP continues to get bigger, |
Sun, 20 October 2024
Grew up in a small town. Married and unmarried at 19. Married once more in 2014 until present. I called OA and the conversation just calmed me. She is still my sponsor today. I cleaned my pantry of any foods I would be sad about loosing. I learned alternative ways of handling my emotions rather than binging. I lost 80 lbs.got pregnant and lost that weight. Maintenance has been a challenge. The traditions are important fore recovery. I personalize them and use them as the basis for my relationships. My relationship with my HP has helped my emotional stability and to make better choices. |
Sun, 13 October 2024
Skinny until 15. My family was full of chaos. Food was my friend for home and school. I was always hustling to get money to buy what I wanted. I was a very unskilled thief. I was over 260- was prescribed diet pills and made it down to 190. Food was only one of the bad choices I made which cost me my marriage. In mid 30's I got almost to 300. First introduced to How and it worked for a while as a diet for the wrong reasons. got up to 350. OA has hooked my up with a higher power. Today I live OA, Use the tools. |
Sun, 6 October 2024
When moving, I would clean the refrigerator with my mouth. They asked me to read at my first meting. What I read did not resonate with me. I was told to 30 in 30 and being an over achiever I complied but still didn't really get the program. and it didn't last long. I finally asked God for help to get home with eating and it worked. My eyes, ears and heart began to open. I did the steps in a week and a half. full time and thoroughly. however 9, 10 and 11 were hard for me to grasp. If something was defective a wanted to throw it a way. Eventually I embraced that I was the problem. Great recovery for 14 months, then relapsed in 1990. A spiritual experience brought me back for good. |