Sun, 6 August 2023
Missing first two minutes of recording. :( Dieted in college comparing myself to everyone else. First time I thought it was a problem. Going to Weight Watcher did not work as I was not willing to take directions and be different from my peers. Somehow I thought the larger I got the more invisible i became. Knowing I could eat in class was a gift from God. By the time I got to OA I was pretty beaten down. I could not fit in a booth etc. Could not keep lying to myself. In OA I saw the light in people eyes, They told a shameful truth and people clapped. I wanted that. Two parts of my abstinence.Temporal and substance. When and what I eat are different components for my recovery. once I decided I wanted what you had and became willing to go to any lengths it all kicked into gear. After a while my mind, my heart and my soul opened up and could receive the gifts of this program. |